12 months and counting

We have now been TTC for a year. It sucks. As of now, it looks like it's unexplained infertility. So basically I can't get pregnant again and doctors can't tell me why. Brilliant! And to top it all off, I just learned that our new health insurance coverage does jack for infertility treatment (as opposed to my former insurance that covered much, much, much more). I keep telling myself that there's a reason for it all, that God's got it all under control. But I'm just sad. It all just doesn't make sense.

Please explain to me why some women who don't want to get pregnant do? Why some women who can barely take care of themselves pop out babies like bunnies? How drunk teens in the back of cars get knocked up? But for the life of me, I can't get pregnant!!!

Yes, I know it sounds like I'm feeling sorry for myself, but I'm entitled to a bad day every now and then.

Sicky Sex

What happens when you know you're about to ovulate but you're sick as a dog with a head cold? Yes, folks, that would mean Sicky Sex!

I'm quite aware of how unappealing I am right now to Bob. My nose is stuffy, my eyes are puffy and I smell like an 80 year-old woman from the vapo-rub. Think Monica from that episode of Friends and you get the full picture.

But if you're TTC and especially if you're taking any fertility meds like I am, you completely understand about having to suck it up and do the deed, even if it means laying there like a dead fish because you're too achy to move.

Sorry Bob! I promise that I'll make it up to you!